Under the Code

I am sure everyone has let frustration get the best of them at one point or another and recently that has happened to me. Without getting into too many details about my frustration, it basically boiled down to trying to do something for years without a lot to show for it (except some experience).  That is not to say the experience earned is not valuable, because it is, but I was not thinking that way at the time of writing the email. Well I decided to send an email to the group of people I am in the endeavor with basically saying I was going to just work on the one project I want to work on, the reason I started this endeavor way back when (and boy is the selfish when I read it now).  Now while I do want to work  on the project idea I have, most of this email was really just from my frustration building up over 5 years.  I sent the email and it did relieve a lot of my frustration and I think just the act of sending the email was enough however instead of sending the email to myself first (what I should have done), I actually sent it out to the group of people.  Needless to say, this has now cause some new issues for me and the group of people I am working with.

Moral to this story?  Whenever doing something like this, always send the email to yourself first and then see if you really want to send it to your intended audience.  You might find sending the email to yourself might be enough and you won’t create new issues for yourself or whoever you send the email too.

It did however allow me to realize that the cause of my frustration was from me focusing on the wrong thing so at a minimum, no matter what happens, something good has come from it.